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The Blank Page

June 15, 2013

If dust could collect on a blog, this one would be buried. Instead of writing from my heart, I’ve been writing out of necessity. To-do lists, appointment reminders, projects for others.  Somehow without realizing it, I’ve neglected to carve out time for me to write for my own satisfaction.

The Blank Page

And every time I thought about how atrophied  my creative spirit had become, I’d push that thought and its associated feelings into the corner of my mind.  But, yesterday in the middle of the night I woke up and faced the fact that it had been months since I sat down and enjoyed time writing.  As I was thinking it over a funny thought popped in my head, “Yes, but not even Oprah cleans her own house.”

Spring 2013, washington, DC 087

And I knew that was it.  Living overseas had given me a great gift, one that I don’t often encounter Stateside: time to myself.  For better or worse, I’m not expected to do everything, once we get on that plane and head across the world.  But here in my home country, it costs major bucks to have a person around to regularly help clean/watch the kids.  And honestly, when the rare unaccounted for hour or two would come my way, I would usually reward myself with a nap rather than do something more productive, like write.

Spring 2013, washington, DC 040-002

Perhaps I’ve allowed myself to fully feel the toll this has taken now, because I know that the end of this chapter is near.  The movers have cleared out our stuff, and we are a couple of weeks away from starting a new adventure in Malaysia.  Goodbyes, even when you are ready for them, always leave their mark, but having the opportunity to get back to writing is something that I am really looking forward to.

4 Comments leave one →
  1. Lucy Bowen permalink
    June 15, 2013 4:02 pm

    Hi Mel, Best of luck with your new adventure, Miss you and hope to see you one day again in the near future. We are in FRA at the moment on our way back to CLT. :) I’ll be sending the CD on Monday or Tuesday :)

    • June 16, 2013 2:23 pm

      Thanks Lucy! Hope to see you sometime soon : ) Thanks so much!

  2. June 15, 2013 4:05 pm

    I am both happy and sad to read this post. Happy for I know you are headed on a new adventure. Happy that you will return to writing and sharing those adventures. Your words and photos are always beautiful; interesting and sometimes slightly twisted (in an entertaining way). I was saddened by your post only because it slaps me in the face with the reality that you and yours will be so far away. The turmoil that is motherhood.

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